The speaker expresses feelings of pressure and discomfort, questioning their safety and success. They admire others’ skills and struggle to cope with the situation, feeling overwhelmed and nostalgic for high school. The speaker experiences physical discomfort, such as a headache, and expresses a sense of impending collapse. They acknowledge their unhappiness and warn against pushing oneself too hard. The overall tone is one of distress and vulnerability, with a plea for understanding and support.